Life Goes On
August 5, 2008
I just got back from taking my firstborn to Kindergarten. All day kindergarten. He couldn’t sleep last night. He was up and down until after 2 this morning, as was I. He is so excited about starting school, and I’m thrilled that he is.
After a few minutes in the classroom, where he looked at me and said, very authoratively, “don’t cry mommy”, the parents of the kindergarteners were to report to the library for a reading seminar. Sitting in there, I pondered questions like, what if he forgets his pin # in the cafeteria and doesn’t get to eat? What if he gets put on the wrong bus and isn’t able to tell the bus driver where he is supposed to go? What if there’s an earthquake, or tornado, or a teradactyl sweeps in an open window and flies off with him? What if, what if, what if. (maybe the first day of kindergarten wasn’t such a great choice of dates for the reading seminar, as I saw a few other teary eyes and worried parents, whom I’m sure were less that focused on the presentation)
“After the seminar, I’ll go to his classroom and take him home with me forever check on him.”, I thought. But then again, what if that embarassed him……………..
Luckily, his class was taking a bathroom break just outside the library when we exited. I was able to see him one last time. He even came up and gave me a big hug and told me all about the breakfast he had just finished. He seemed to be doing well. Truthfully, probably better than me. I am quite proud of myself. I didn’t cry…….well, not alot anyways.
It seems weird here today. It’s one of my rare days off, and to just have one kid is strange, but it is nice to have the one on one time with the youngest. I’m getting lots of hugs and “I love you’s”, and I think he’s thrilled to not have to share the toys and tv.
Maybe later I’ll convince him to take a nap. I’m exhausted from my sleepless night and eventful morning.